To whom shall we go?

After weeks of hearing Gospel after Gospel about how Jesus is the bread of life and how we have to eat his flesh and drink his blood to have eternal life, we finally got to the end this week. The part in the story where most followers finally state the obvious. “Are you sure? That’s hard to swallow!” (no pun intended)

Shocked at this teaching, many left and went back to their old life because they couldn’t accept that concept. When the disciples were the only ones left, Jesus asks if they are going to leave too. I love the honesty that follows. Simon Peter says to Jesus, “To whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life.”

It’s a question I’ve asked multiple times. I’ve struggled with whether or not to remain in the Catholic Church. My thoughts and beliefs on certain things have been evolving and I didn’t know how to be Catholic while not fitting into what I thought meant being a perfect Catholic. When I began to research what churches to visit, I realized something like the disciples did that day. I believe in the true presence of Christ in the Eucharist. I believe in the Sacraments. I believe in One, Holy, Catholic, & Apostolic Church. I found myself asking, “To whom shall I go? To where? How could I live without these things?” The answer was clear. Nowhere.

Which interestingly enough, leaves me speaking the same words as Joshua from the first reading from this Sunday’s Mass:

As for me and my household, we will serve the LORD.


What? A blog? Oh yea…

Millions of thoughts have been flooding my head in the past months and I’ve been wanting to write them out and share them. I felt “tugged” toward blogging, but would I remember my password or even the site I had used last?

I did remember. I almost fell on the floor in disbelief when I logged in and saw my first notification, “Happy Anniversary! It’s been 2 years since you activated your WordPress account.” Even more intriguing was the fact that I called it “The real me, Finally!”

I’m pretty sure that 2 years ago, I still had no idea who the heck I was. I’ve come quite a long way. Thank you Jesus! (And I’m not just saying that, it is all due to Jesus!) I looked back at one of those posts from August of 2013 about how I’d finally opened up and asked those going on pilgrimages to pray for me. Let’s just say, prayers work. I am not perfect. I am not done. Yet, I find myself in better place everyday. Never give up!

One major thing I’ve wanted to share here is about Power. In July, I went to a Jeremy Camp concert with a friend. We heard a song that could have knocked me off my feet. It’s called Same Power.

The chorus is: The same power that rose Jesus from the grave, the same power that commands the dead to wake, lives in us, lives in us. The same power that moves mountains when he speaks, the same power that can calm a raging sea, lives in us, lives in us. He lives in us, lives in us.

If you haven’t heard it, YouTube it, iTunes it, whatever you have to do to hear this song. I get pumped up and empowered every time I hear it. Mostly because…it’s TRUE!

While driving one night, I turned off the music and had a total preach-a-thon in the car with myself. At baptism, we are anointed priest, profit, and king. We are claimed for Christ. We are given new life in Him. From that moment, we are infused with the power to bring the sacraments to others (Eucharistic minister, baptize), share the gospel (in loving, kind words and by example), and speak life, speak healing, and speak truth with authority. God knew it would not be easy to bear that power, so He gave us the Bread of Life to sustain us. Then, we still need some help to not lose sight of that power, so God gave us the Sacrament of Confirmation. We don’t wait until then to receive the gifts of the Holy Spirit or the power. We have it all at baptism. Remember, at Confirmation, the priest or bishop tells us “Be sealed“. It is then that all of the power is sealed, forever, within us. We are then, considered fully initiated into the Catholic faith. We have everything we need. What’s even better is that we can execute this power with faith as small as a mustard seed! We don’t have to be ‘holy rollers’, we don’t have to be saints, we don’t have to be religious or project a ‘pious’ persona. We need only the tiniest amount of faith that God is real, Jesus is real, and the Holy Spirit is real. We let so much power go to waste every second.

Are you willing to acknowledge your power? Are you ready to use it? Speak healing over your life. Speak truth into your life. It’s not magic. It’s a gift. It is not reserved for the ordained, consecrated, or saintly. It’s for all of us.

Matthew 17:19-20 (NASB): Then the disciples came to Jesus privately and said, “Why could we not drive it out?” And He said to them, “Because of your littleness of faith; for truly I say to you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible to you.”

The disciples with him had faith less than a mustard seed. Thankfully, we get to be even closer to Jesus than the disciples, because we have the Eucharist. The ability to gain faith even bigger than the disciples is ours. Let’s not waste another moment!